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[Dec. 9th, 2006|10:09 pm] |
No one's life is perfect.
Everyone has hardship. No one gets dealt the perfect hand.
Everyone gets confused, everyone gets lost, everyone gets hurt.
The difference with the people who seem to "have it all" is that they accept what they have, be THANKFUL for it. And make their life and everything that comes from it as good as you can.
You can dwell on what you dont have. What people don't do for you. And what you need to make yourself happy. But just ask yourself. What will be enough? If you can't be happy with what you have now, when will you ever be happy? |
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[Oct. 16th, 2006|07:56 pm] |
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just as everything was coming together, it all falls apart.
i just dont know where to start.
school.
friends.
band.
its all just falling apart. and i dont know what to do. i dont have a spare minute in my day anymore. but no matter what, i still keep getting sucked into doing more and more.
i just cant take it anymore.
today did not help at all either. |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2006|01:17 am] |
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i got a 5 on the ap test.
omg, i thought i'd get like a low 4, but, guess not. |
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[Jul. 1st, 2006|12:39 am] |
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DISCLAIMER: This is a long, extensive, self centered lj entry. if you do not want to hear/will be offended the things i have to say, stop now, and save yourself the time and energy of getting upset.
This entry has been a long time coming...
END OF SCHOOL
So, the end of the school year was pretty good. I got all the grades i was hoping for...well realistically hoping for. i got a 3.5, which, with my schedule, im proud of. i actually got a B- in chem and precalc. that was pretty sweet.
overall, i did pretty good this year. I got the exact same grades first and second semester, i find that amusing. however, i still wish i had done WELL in one or two classes, instead of decent in all of them, because now that i think of it, i have no teachers to write my letters of recommendation for college. i'll prolly just end up asking teachers from last year, prolly edick and kleinow.
on the topic of college, i feel a lot better about my college apps, especially UoM. it'd be really great to get in there. but im still barely there. i got a 30 on the act and a 2080 on the sat, but i only have a 3.6, so i could possibly barely make it in. Other than that ive been looking at Grove City College. Its this tiny Presbyterian college in pennsylvania, but they have really high standards for admission, and a good science program.
also, on the topic of school still, im retaking adv. comp A next year, with a different teacher, because i got a B in miller, but i dont think i learned anything, and im not a very good writer.
JUNE MINI CAMP
Well, we won spirit week. And lemme tell ya, thats no small feat in my section.
Monday was hawiaan day, and well, we thought it was pcmb day. So at 8:46 that morning me and alex raced back to my house, ran in and grabbed all the stuff we had bought, raced back to the school and got there a 8:58, giving us just enough time to open the box of 50 leis, and throw a grass skirt or shell bra at every one, and take attendance. At lunch we went back to get more shell bras, get the picture of a volcano we forgot, and the people who stayed blew up the palm trees. then martys mom brought mumus, hawiaan shirts, and a travle guide.
We pulled off a win, tied with the clarinets.
Tuesday was tye dye day, and well we won. hands down. it was sweet.
we all had shirts, tye dyed towels, and a 15 ft wall of tye dye.
Wednesday, we didnt really do anyhting.
Thursday was christmas. We had trees, lights, wreaths, more lights, presents, candy canes, santa hats, ornaments, a fireplace, and singing pointsiettas.
we won tied with the guard.
Friday was pcmb day.
Everyone wore their black and yellow.
we had a wall of signs, spray painted on the wall.
and we a had a 30 ft tall banner.
but we didnt win.
...oh well. we won the week tied with the clarinets so thats all that really matters right?
also, my name, was accidnetally painted on to the ground at plymouth. whoops.
ALSO
friday, alex and i painted the rock yellow and black (and red and silver) friday. so we win.
overall, being the only monetary supporter of spirit week, i spent $158.00
i really put everything i had into this week. getting to band at least an hour every day until monday, doing nothing but preparations the night before. buying and preparing bribes. the whole nine yards.
but in addition to spirit week i put everyting i had into practice too. everyday we did basics, i would not let myself slack off. not for a second. i was always trying harder than the last time. always getting better. and i have to say, i got so much better.
as a side effect to not slacking, i lost like 5 pounds. and i just feel a lot healthier too. its pretty cool.
More recently, i've been owrking, had band ect.
im really proud of the progress that the trombones are making, we had a sectional thursday, and it was kinda loose, but i know at least matt got a lot out of it. and it was good to just play together more, and get the warm ups down, because i dont want to end up liek the woodwinds getting chewed out at practice.
Im looking forward to the rest of the summer. Me and Roz are going to cedar point, that should be a lot of fun. Im really excited for soak city. I've always kinda had a thing for water parks.
Thats it for now. |
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[Jun. 5th, 2006|09:44 pm] |
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so, i made first chair wind.
also, marty also beat alex noble.
i hope he feels bad for being a jerk.
i guess the auditions have "spoken for themselves"
ps GOOD JOB ALEX! |
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[May. 8th, 2006|09:51 pm] |
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at this point i dont know what i am going to do.
but im not gonna sit here and do nothing. because that is ridiculous.
absolutely ridiculous. i got yelled at for giving someone a hug. |
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[Apr. 21st, 2006|12:06 am] |
so i was thinking...the cop call number for armed robbery is 319, so next march...
if anyone would like to join me on my mad robbing spree, let me know! |
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[Apr. 11th, 2006|10:45 pm] |
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so...if anyone feels like being a tattle tale, you con go ahead and print this off and show it to whitlock.
but you probably wont, because then he'll have to see what im actually saying, and not what you made up
so do it.
i dare you.
anyway
I hate Mr. Whitlock.
He thinks he's God's gift to band, but he's not.
I can think of 2 people in this world that think he is doing a good job.
and even within those two, neither actually RESPECTS him.
its so ridiculous.
he is driving the band into the ground.
no one enjoys any aspect of band anymore.
the only reason i dont quit is because i love my section so much.
but honestly
if you disagree, i dare you to comment. go ahead.
but do me this favor.
before you disagree with me, ask yourself
is he a good band director?
or just good to YOU
and you know who you are.
because everyone knows who his favorites.
the one he asks if their alright, who asks whats wrong, who kicks people out of band, if their feelings are hurt.
but if youre not a favorite. good luck.
also.
if you have any problem with roz, dont let me hear about it again. because i know her better than you ever will. and maybe you dont know it, but i know how much she cares, and how good a friend she is, and how she deserves none of the crap people put her through. because she is such a good person, you cant hope to understand.
and hey, sorry she isnt "nice" to you, but at least she doesnt act nice, then turn around and flick you off when your back is turned or talk about how much she hates you. those are your other "friends".
have a nice day. |
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[Mar. 6th, 2006|12:12 am] |
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so
call me a hypocrite
because im putting lyrics in my myspace
and i complain when other people do that
because i really like these lyrics
so yea
EDIT:i took out the chorus to be less annoying, but it kinda changes the song, so read it if you want. its different now.
I know I've been mistaken,
But just give me a break
And see the changes that I've made.
I've got some imperfections,
But how can you collect them all
And throw them in my face?
But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting
I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending,
It's as much as I can take.
And you're so independent,
You just refuse to bend
So I keep bending 'till I break
But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting
I've made a commitment,
I'm willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you
Why can't you just forgive me?
I don't want to relive all the mistakes I've made along the way...
But I always find a way to keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting
But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if I chose to walk away, would you be right here waiting?
Searching for the things to say to keep me right here waiting |
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[Feb. 23rd, 2006|09:13 pm] |
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also, im not mad, im not really even upset...im actually pretty calm. |
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[Feb. 20th, 2006|10:40 pm] |
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:) (: :( ): :D C: :C :/ /: :< >: :> <:
now im even cooler. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 19th, 2006|08:05 pm] |
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| | emo | ] |
[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name?: Carrie
Birthplace: detriot
Age: 16
Age you act: 16
Current location: plymouth
Eye color: blue
Hair color: blonde/brown
Right, lefty or ambidextrous?: righty
Zodiac sign?: virgo
Height?: 5'9"
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality: dutch..and some other stuff
Your hair: long and blonde
Your fears: being left behind
Your perfect room: i guess mine
What you do in a day: i dunno, school, work, homework (sometimes)
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse: yea
Phrases you overuse: so DUDE, omg! so yesterday at zpa zone...
Your first thought when you wake up: no
Your greatest accomplishment: i dont know.
Something you want to do: make things better
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke: neither
McDonald's or Burger King: mc donalds
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera: neither
Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
Adidas or Nike: adidas
Black or white: black
Bills or Coins: bills
Burgers or hot dogs: burgers
Egypt or France: france
Rock or rap: rock
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke?: nope
Cuss?: yea...
Sing well?: meh
Sing in the shower?: no i sleep in the shower
Talk to yourself?: yes. when i'm home alone.
Believe in yourself?: no
Like taking these longass surveys?: i used to
Play an instrument?: yuhuh
Want to go to college?: yes
Want to get married?: yes
Want to have children?: probly
Think you're a health freak?: nope
Get along with your parents: mostly
Get along with your siblings?: usually
Think you're popular?: no
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state: no
Drank alchohol: no
Smoked: no
Gotten high: no
Done any drugs: no
Eaten an entire box of oreos: no
Been on stage: variety is...
Gone skinny dipping: no
Been dumped: no
Dyed your hair: no
Stolen anything: no
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! [x]
Craziest: Jordan
Loudest: Jordan
Most shy: christina
Blondest: actual hair color would be polly
Smartest: roz
Kindest: amy
Best personality: define best...
Most talented: polly
Best singer: i dunno
Most ghetto: shanell
Drama Queen: ha.
Pain in the ass: marty
The one you just want to strangle to death: ...
Funniest: roz
Best person for advice: kara
Dependable: roz
Trustworthy: roz
Druggie: ...
Most likely to end up in jail:
Person you've known the longest: Carrie J
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream: umm, i drove christina around in her van without a liscence, then we went to kroger for prom
Last nightmare: haha, well i kinda had one of those AHH, while youre like half asleep after me and roz watched high tension
Car ride: going home from coldstone
Last time you cried: yesterday
Last movie seen: robots
Last movie rented: robots
Last book read: hp 6
Last word said: what
Last curse word said: umm...prolly shit...a while ago |
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[Feb. 17th, 2006|06:12 pm] |
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| | emotionally bruised and broken | ] |
so...WASSAH?!?!?!?!?!?!??!???
puppy chow is really really tasty, except when you make it bad...then it sucks.
asdfjkl;
thats home row...thought you ought to know.
so are you glad it friday? because i AM!!!!
yes indeed.
amy is doing ny hair, its not goin so well....thats ok though!!!
BTW-- I'm really really good at DDR. I would be especially good compared to other amputees. you know...people with no legs....
Roz is taking pictures of herself...its pretty sweet i must say!
mmmmmmm....so i burned a lot of things today...like cups!
umm so i dnt know what to write but i still have a strange urge to update!
ok bye!!
EVENING of EXCELLLENCE TONIGHT!!!
come watch me be excellent (for only $100)!!!! |
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[Feb. 12th, 2006|08:28 pm] |
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| |  crazy | ] |
VandSocc89: hi
VandSocc89: hi
VandSocc89: whats up?!??!!?
VandSocc89: whats up?!??!!?
VandSocc89: nm
VandSocc89: nm
VandSocc89: wow, me too
VandSocc89: wow, me too
VandSocc89: stop copying me
VandSocc89: stop copying me
VandSocc89: oh thats REALLY mature
VandSocc89: oh thats REALLY mature
VandSocc89: i hate you
VandSocc89: i hate you
VandSocc89: ok...well
VandSocc89: ok...well
VandSocc89: i'm stupid.
VandSocc89: you're stupid. |
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[Feb. 9th, 2006|07:35 pm] |
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so...
to the person who decided to write "fuck you" on my myspace:
you're lame.
you could at least tell me in person instead of being a stupid coward, and writing it in secret.
you're lame.
really lame.
...who does that? |
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[Feb. 8th, 2006|10:24 pm] |
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| | exhausted | ] |
so today
i heard this remix of because of you...and it was horrible. i mean, i thought it was like the asst. manager messing around with the mic or something...it was so bad i actually walked up to the front desk to read the music player thingy to see if it was a joke...but it wasnt. worst remix of anything ever.
also
the new place next to glo golf got a bunch of sealant or something today, and it smelled so bad they had to close glo golf. it was sick. i have a headache from the grossness. or maybe that was the helium ballons...who knows
oh!
but on a more positive note
i had mac n cheese spirals for dinner. yum
so...will you be my friend? |
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[Feb. 7th, 2006|10:40 pm] |
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so thats cool...im cool. everything's cool. sort of. who knows. umm yea.
so yea.
i say "so yea", and "but um" a lot.
wassah??!?!!?
dude!
who wants to got to zap zone tommorow?!?!
YOU DO! (cough cough...4-10)
umm anyway.
i happy i think.
kinda frusterated though.
not about anything to do with anyone, cept kinda. but no.
oh well.
so today is psych we did a free association writing thing, and man. i learned some things about myself. yep.
i like that class a lot. if only it weren't so hard. (yes, i know its easy...unless you have Hart.)
k bye!
ME |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 5th, 2006|10:49 pm] |
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| | disappointed | ] |
so the party at sarah's was really fun.
fyi. |
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[Feb. 2nd, 2006|11:02 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | oww | ] |
(Im making the angry face)
So, i hurt myself on a drawer. A nail went inside me. Its upsetting.
If you havent noticed, i type entries, comments, ect. with a lot of spaces. Its easier for me to read that way. I jsut noticed that.
Anyway.
HI! |
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